Sadness of the month

i have one month sem break... Sem break? i dont feel like is a sem break... I feel like something is goin to break... But i dont wan it to break... Break up is big deal for you? Yes.. because she is the only one that i loved. No1 is better than her in my whole life. Every single micro second im missing her.... A month is long period... i dont know wat im supposed to do... i cant talk to her.. cant see her.. all my decision are pending on you... This month i think alot of thing and learn alot of thing from the past..

From the start till now.. all is my fault. Thing i have done i really really really regret... Can i return back to the pass? I have to face reality.. is there any choice? is there any chance? is there any hope? is there???!!!!! Everyday i will keep thinking Am i goin to lost her? im really really scare knowing the answer... im scared know the ending....

Everyone know lie is a bad thing. This teach me a lesson. Why did i lie? because at first i dont wan her to worry and dont think too much... there are still got meaning behind it.. But is good to like her worry and think than not to.. One day she was asking me did u lie to me about bla bla thing and she give me chance to say... yet i still say no........ wat a stupid thing... she give me a chance to say.. y dont i? i dont know wat went through my mind but i can see now... make her suffer... lies bring her bad thing now and losing trust and confident... now does she love me ? she replied me i dont know.. empty feeling.. SEE WAT I HAVEN DONE?

I will never ever repeat myself again... I wont let it this thing happen anymore.. i always say you should appreciate me but no.. i should appreciate you more. Now I cant care her... she says she can take care herself. It is not enough... How about her feeling? she still suffering... I really wanted to show her how much i love you.. how much that i care you even though im not around you.. My feeling still around your side. She was emo-ing.... i worry her and i cant do anything because she said i dun feel like talk to anyone...

Last sentence that i can say....
I LOVE YOU...